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Wednesday, December 13, 2006


i have been getting myself sad thinking about certain things i shall not mention.
its probably a stage as maturation of a teenager occurs.
but then i have this sudden realisation that life is meant to be lived to the fullest.( i know its clique and i know i'm terribly slow)
so i declare that i shall still stay happy.
and eccentric. and weird. and blur. as the old meng was.
since the holidays started, maybe its the lack of lame experiences, maybe its the lack of friendship and social life, maybe its the 5 CAP essays i have to complete, maybe its the dread of a new school year, maybe its nolstagia of oneohfour again, but sadness comes so easily and so swiftly it dampens your mood so much that i lose all interest in blogging, tv, sims, and everything.
i just hole up and sleep.
boo. it was so not me. i started reprimanding myself for slacking in my badminton stamina, practice and everything. bang the wall, man. i want to be able to run swiftly on court, my previous haven, and wield the racket with absolute prowress again.
not forgetting the damn CAP which got on my nerves. i just DO NOT have patience to do five pieces of wonderful work.
and then there was simmy going to new zealand. somehow, that too, got me to start thinking so seriously about things my brain was about to split up.
ha. scratch all that. i shall not think so much anymore. not think about how useless everything seems and whining about the lost past. i should
look forward!
look forward!
i'm still a tree!
with lots of chlorophyll!
yay. i think i still can hang out till school re-opens.
now, please let inspiration pop into my head. the five pieces of compos will not appear like that.

gave my heart */ on 10:13:00 PM